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Opposites attract

March 17, 2020

Continuation from Jake… (the pic above is from 2009, when I was in DC with Jake. He picked a flower and stuck it behind my ear while we were strolling downtown one evening). I loved the western part of the country.  It’s vastness and openness, the opportunities to really feel like you’re in the middle of nowhere, to soak up the silence and the beauty of Mother Nature. …

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Jake

February 3, 2020

Continuation from Sleeping with Regret Jake and I hit it off and began dating in early 2007.  There was a lot to like about him — especially his mind.  He was an independent thinker and although I considered myself a thinker as well, Jake constantly stretched me to see things from new angles.  He listened to NPR and a bunch of brainy podcasts.  He was cultured, well-read, educated,…

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Sleeping with regret

January 30, 2020

Continuation from The end of a chapter. The sparkle began to fade after four years of stripping. I was tired of the late nights. The smoky bars, the loud music, the bachelor parties… it was all becoming grating. But I would graduate soon. I say that like I had any idea what I was going to do after graduation. I didn’t. I just assumed that a college degree…

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Love triangle fallout

January 19, 2020

Continuation from Finding myself in a love triangle…. Bryan was supposed to be out playing poker with some buddies. When I got home, his car was still gone. I was relieved. I went inside, changed clothes, and went to bed. I must have fallen asleep quickly because I don’t even remember him coming to bed. I got up before him the next morning and made some coffee. I…

Dating Love The Dud[e]s

Finding myself in a love triangle

January 16, 2020

Continuation from Cowboy, Part 2 A few months after Eric and I broke up, I began dating another guy. His name was Bryan. Bryan was sweet, funny, substantially older than me (15 years my senior). He had just gotten a divorce when we met, although he had been separated for a while. Bryan was the dad to two young daughters. I was 21 or 22 at the time,…

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Cowboy, Part 2

January 13, 2020

Continuation from Falling in love with Cowboy I took Eric home to meet my family and we went out to a steakhouse. I wasn’t sure how my mom and dad would react – he was a far cry from the pretty boys I’d dated before. Then again, I hadn’t exactly had many boyfriends. He drove an old blue Ford pickup, lifted with huge tires. It was a redneck…

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Falling in love with Cowboy

January 11, 2020

About a year into dancing and shortly after the development of my stripper persona, Belle, I fell in love. With a customer. Truthfully, I’ve only admitted this to a few people. Falling in love with a customer goes against every rule in the stripper book. But I couldn’t help myself, and as I tell the story… I think you’ll understand why. It was late at night, maybe 1:30…